Translation of "occidar" into English

first-person singular present passive subjunctive of occīdō "may I be felled, may I be cut to the ground; may I be beaten, may I be smashed, may I be crushed" "may I be killed, may I be slain, may I be slaughtered" ( by extension ) "may I be plagued to death, may I be tortured, may I be tormented, may I be pestered" ( by extension ) "may I be ruined, may I be undone"