Translation of "rwose" into English

Numvise rwose nta cyo nkimaze ku isi, ku buryo niyemeje kwiyahura.

I felt completely useless and empty to the point that I decided to end my life.

Kugerageza kuryoza ingirabuzima fatizo zacu imyifatire yose idakwiriye tugira, rwose si wo muti.

Trying to pin the entire blame for our misconduct on our genes simply does not work.